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2012.. another friend which I only made during another friend's wake have gone home with the lord.

Life is so fragile, really . Last week, still see his post on FB, now he is gone just like that.

Life is so cruel to him. He was supposing going to married his nurse gf who will take care of him despite his disbility. She died few months before their marriage due to heart attack. They even applied for a flat which comes in June 2011.

Who knows after a year apart, victor joined her in the other world.

This is just as similar to the drama,, 梁山伯与祝英台

Alive they are a pair, death will not keep them apart.

RIP, victor, you will missed. You have taught us to be independant and stay strong despite of what happen.

We live! We Love! We Learn! ......History is A Lesson and Time Is a Test! _quoted by Victor Sim (2011)

Dennis was right, people was fighting to stay alive. I am fighting for a unworthy cause. I deserve a slap

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Life is like windflower...come easy, go easy...

Wind Flower (English Translation)


If I turn my back on like this
If I disappear like this
I wouldn't come into bloom
If I just look at you like this
It might be good to live while closing my eyes


Without looking, I see you
Without listening, I hear you
Like a wind flower which revived by your breathing

I wish to reach you, but I couldn't
I wish to hug you, but I couldn't
Your fingertips reach my heart

Will you know, after long long night?
The love smiling in tears

I wish to have you, but I couldn't
I wish to reach you, but I couldn't
Like a wind flower which revived in your heart

Without looking, I see you
Without listening, I hear you
Getting scattered in the wind
Getting scattered into your heart

If today service disruption in MRT is bad enough for me..

I have to wake up super early, to transit from 2 bus to reach suntec,,oh man...entire 2 hrs.

oh well a journey of faith...what can i say..today is our church 's candlelight service.

Planed for a karaoke session, but it din worked out but instead I found interest in monopoly deal card games.. Haha fun filled afternoon with my ex cell group member..Ex? yesh current..haiz that another post (maybe to tell)

Anyway after a long day at town, I bravely took a train back..ha why bravely...in case it break down mah... true enough the train i am in really test my faith, it was shaking rather vigorously as though the cabin is going to give way.

My terror ride from cityhall to boon lay.

Transport woes starts now.

Incident 1:
When I reach Boon Lay interchange, I wheeled forward to board svc nos 181 . When I reach, the bus is only half full capacity, i signal to the bus captain, he claimed it was full and asked me to wait for the next bus. I tried to communicate with him a while then I decided to leave when he seem so reluctant.


Incident 2:
Thinking that my feedback will be useful for SBSTransit future improvement in their customer service, I went to the interchange counter and spoke nicely to one of their staff (dressed in green uniform), There were only two staff in the office during then, one Chinese and one Indian.

To my dismay and horror, the chinese staff (SBS should be able to track who is on duty: Chinese, time of incident 1800hrs on 18/12/11) rebuked me by asking me not find trouble and added that since the bus had left, what I want from him. His confrontation is totally uncalled for. I will be shock if SBS does condone such behaviour of your counter staff.

I am traumatised by this event and sent SBS a feedback form. Not that I always want to complain but I really hope that SBS will take any necessary action deem fit.Singapore is heading towards 1st class transport ya...hmmmm a looong way to go.ha


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really a day of transport woes...


Ahhhhh


Goodnite! to rest my overburn body for waking up early.

Haha wanted to close this blog, but i cant bear to..


I cannot write very well, nor tactfully and the use of boombastic words.

but this is the only avenue for me to....RELEASE all sorts of emotion, laughter, pain, sorrow and ....

ha therefore


REVIVAL of it!!!


slowly but surely....

A new Defintition of Friends! haha

yes..it is not just a day or two....entire month till date. being stalked by a guy..haiz not only me , the rest of my bro in cg too..

Each time when I jus open Facebook, he would appear, and he would use FB chat to strike conversation.

Once a while, it is ok, twice is still ok, thrice...barely ok...but the problem is EVERYDAY!!..there was even once i told him i was so tired , when i reach home, wanted to take a quick nap, but he kept on messaging..haiz

today is the worst, the message has become more demanding. "....later you must really reply to me ok later..." My Qn is Do I owe you anything at all...:(


Logging into FB is like going into battle, cannot have a piece of mind to do my stuff.haiz

wanted to tell him straight, but afraid will hurt him as a friend. Feel sorry for him too, it just show how small is social circle are. and it leads me to think how irritating i was in the past during poly days. I was insecure thn , always finding chance to strike conversations... oh well...What to do..it just show that what goes around does turn around ya..

Tot of blocking him from FB too.. but pastor mention that must be foreberance to all. jesus forebear all our sins so we should do unto other too..I have been trying ..seriously. I wanted to see him grow spiritually in cg but sometimes we do need our own personal space and privacy. this gotta be made clear to him i guess. Truth hurts but it has to be done!

OK the coast is clear now...March in!!!!

妳曾說不想有天讓我知道　妳對他　有那麼好
妳說會懂　我的失落　不是靠寬容　就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好　妳和他　正說要分開
我以為妳　己對他不再期待　不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的​缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發​生

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白　他的心　已不在妳身上
我的關心　妳依然無動於衷　我的以為　只是我以為

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的​缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發​生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強　卻一天天的失望
少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的​缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發​生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強　卻輸得那麼絕望
少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

phew i was so grateful to be able to post this post. not that my nosebleeding had stopped...



anyway i was kenna hacked and my livejournal account is compromised...quicly email livejournal and got back my account.

was told by some of my friend that they did received email stating my IP address is trying to log in to their account...sorry for that if YOU are one of the victims. I am not a hacker for godsake!

Luckily i changed my password in time to minise damage done and everything seems fine for now

it made me wonder, should i change my Facebook and MSN account too. err reason being the password use is rather similar...


OKOK back to a busy Friday.